Adults have tantrums

I do, for sure. Let little things, both known and unknown, build up til I explode. There are saner ways to make a decision.

When G returns, I do owe an amends for the impersonal way in which I contacted him to let him know what I was doing. I really didn't even have to let him know...but as he said, 'after 6 - 7 years, an email? Get real.'

I was acting out of fear...and in the last 24 hours it has dawned on me that dealing that way with ANYONE I have known for even 2 years is likely to be really hurtful.

G and that church community have supported me through a lot. I owe them much, not the least of which is a direct and loving relationship, and an honest one as well.

I must remember to not judge my insides by someone else's outsides.

Onward. Together.