I am not going to be famous or sought-after; no singing and performing career for me. I came as close to my dreams as I could. My old life of being an active addict did not help me take myself or my career more seriously, nor instilled the necessary discipline.
If I had it to do over, I would have recorded my CD in Vancouver. Also, I was in a real musical family in Ontario and starting to get into the folk clubs. :-( I had joy and confidence in performing MY material, because folk club fans totally expect and want that.
I will not be happily married - thinking about it, I am really not marriageable material. As someone I know noted, once you pass a certain age, you are invisible - unless you already have a partner.
A full-time thriving career of any kind is not to be had. I have the brains and talent, but have been tripped up for a lifetime with the ADD, Sleep Apnea and Dysthymia.
I want a new direction. It is not at all too late. But for what? I do not know.
I write all these to still the restless what-ifs. Those are done.
It is finished. A new road begins. Lead on, Creator.
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You never know who might think you're marriageable material, or if an opportunity for you to make music will come along again. As far as sleep apnea and dysthymia... been there, done that (still doing it). Some days are good, others not so good. "I want a new direction. It is not at all too late. But for what? I do not know." Let's see where it goes for you. A new year is coming. I'll be here on the sidelines rooting for you. And if you could root for me too, that would be great. :)
ReplyDeleteHugs,
elyse